Sunday, February 26, 2012

F.E.A.R.

Every once in a while in your walk with Christ, you'll find that He keeps sending you the same message...a message that you need to hear...a message that speaks directly to your situation and what's going on in your life. I'd like to share the message that I've been presented with...fear.



At first I thought "nope, this message doesn't apply to me. I dont really have any fears." But, I thought to myself, fear is more than just that fear of falling or that fear of rats, it's also that fear that things won't work out the way that you plan. This may seem fairly obvious for some, but to me it wasn't. Why? Because sometimes when something hurts or depresses you, those primary feelings cause you to forget that it's fear that drives it. Think about it...if you already knew your situation/trial was going to work out in your favor would you be sad or depressed?



Fear can paralyze you to the point where you can't envision better days. Your mind is so clouded with the here and now that you can only concentrate on present day emotions. But, let me encourage you while I encourage myself. There is a Fred Hammond song called "Blessed" and one portion of the song states "Late in the midnight hour, God's gonna turn it around." maybe you feel like you're in your midnight hour where all is going wrong, fear of continuing hardship paralyzes you with fear, and you don't understand why you have to endure these feelings. I don't have all the answers because if I did I'd know exactly how to handle the trials in my life. But what I do have is a God who can make my situations do a 180 and work out for my good. I have a God who has already made me a winner and will never leave me nor forsake me. I have a God who is not a man, so He never lies to me. And because I serve such an awesome God, I can trust in Him when he states that He did not give me a spirit of fear.



We need to remember that fear is not from God and that we must not allow it to cloud our mind. Release those fears and take on a spirit of power, love, and a sound mind. Fear = False Evidence Appearing Real. When you step back and look at it, you'll see there really isn't anything to fear at all. If we believe God will provide then we must let go of our fears and watch Him work. That's what's real...God's ability to put you in a position of victory. Don't focus on false evidence. Focus on a very real God.

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Random Post

I miss my straight hair...I'm trying to hold on and complete this hair challenge.



I'm ready to be employed again. This is rough ::sigh::



The things are great in my life: loving, supportive family. That includes my boyfriend. Couldn't have asked for a better one. Imperfectly perfect.

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Update on My Heat Damage Thoughts

Hey Guys,



As you may recall from my last post, I have been weighing the pros and cons of both cutting off my heat damaged hair or going back to relaxers. Well, I recently saw a YouTube video by DPrincess28 entitled, "Heat Damage 101." I encourage everyone who may be dealing with the same struggle I am to take 12 minutes and 26 seconds out of your day to watch this vlog. In the video, she basically reinforced a few of my previous beliefs about heat damaged hair.



Although I may have heat damaged hair, my hair IS NOT DAMAGED!!! Lol just had to clarify that. That's not what I was trying to say in my last post. What I was really trying to get at in my last post was that my curl pattern has been morphed by constant use of heat. So, instead of being puffy all over, I have straight ends that will not curl again. That's what you call heat damage. The purpose of me waiting until after the hair challenge is over was to assess how my hair is doing overall, meaning whether my ends were really uneven or if the two textures (straight and kinky) affects the overall look of my hair. I do believe my hair is healthy, but if the straight, heat damaged ends are not thriving as much as the roots of my hair, I may be convinced otherwise.



But, anyways, back to the YouTube video. So, it helped me realize that I wasn't "ignoring" my heat damage. Not at all. I always knew my ends were straight. The fact is, as I stated in my last post, I like to wear my hair straight. When I stopped perming my hair, my real thought process was, "Oh, I can get a wash and set without a relaxer and still get the same results? Bye, bye Affirm" lol. Thus, due to my preference for straight hair, I have been tolerant of my heat damaged hair. If I were one of those naturals who wears their hair in its natural curly state 90 or even 80% of the time, I might have taken a scissor to those straight ends a long time ago. However, for me it doesn't make sense. Because when I wear my hair in it's natural state, my mind is set on retaining length so my ends are tucked away in a protective style.



So, here's what I'm thinking now. I will continue to be natural, I'll work on decreasing my usage of heat (really for the sake of retaining length), and I won't be hindered by straight ends because they never really bothered me. If I ever feel different, because let's face it we all change our mindset, I will gradually trim off the straight ends.




Well, that's my decision for now. It may change, it may not. Who's to say *kanye shrug*